Self care and Satan

I grew up with a mother and religion that frowned upon taking care of yourself. Everything you did had to be for somebody else. My mother would call me the devil when I did anything for myself. When I was around 5 she had divorced her husband and he was ordered to pay alimony and child support. He thought that he was smart so he moved to Canada where he is originally from and the American courts could not enforce the law and force him to pay child support from Canada.

My mother got skin cancer and she was given a few months to live. Her family is in Canada so she moved us there. She intended to die so she thought that my sister and I would be better off with her parents. Her father is a man who abused his children and her mother is a woman who turned her head the other way even though she knew what was happening.

My mother worked for a successful business woman and this woman offered to adopt me when she learned that my mother had been given a death sentence and that my mother was moving me to Canada. My mother said that a child's place was with her mother and she refused to let me live with a woman who was more than qualoified to raise me and who had thee means to provide for me.

When we first moved to Canada we lived in my aunt's trailer. My aunt and my mother didn't get along well and after a month my aunt threw us out. We were homeless and my mother would call up people and beg to sleep on theeir couches.